After a trip away from home in August and September, I really struggled to get back to painting. Pressure at work and a mind that was too busy meant I was only in the studio for short periods of time and those were mostly short and distracted. In this mind-state I just played around with paint and slowly emerged three abstract paintings which I decided to keep. Some others did not make it…
The one above was the first time I painted on canvas in quite a while. I rather enjoyed the feeling of canvas and will probably revert back to canvas more often in future.
This second one was painted the next day, and I started leaning into a more green and blue atmosphere. This is oil and cold wax on panel:
The third one was made in the same week. It seems to be the most popular, based on Instagram likes – if that is anything to go by:
Robert Henri wrote:
THE WORK OF THE ART STUDENT is no light matter. Few have the courage and stamina to see it through. You have to make up your mind to be alone in many ways. We like sympathy and we like to be in company. It is easier than going it alone. But alone one gets acquainted with himself, grows up and on, not stopping with the crowd. It costs to do this. If you succeed somewhat you may have to pay for it as well as enjoy it all your life.
Henri, Robert. The Art Spirit (p. 12). Basic Books.
When I made the last painting (O258) I was feeling my way through the days. My father had recently passed away (I wrote about this in another post), and since my return to New Zealand I have been ambivalent about my art and what I want to – or will be able to – achieve with it. I mean – why do this?
The emotion I felt reminded me of the phrase from Rilke’s poem “We must die because we have known them”. It is the sort of uncertainty one can perhaps only keep silent about – like wandering “Pathless at Night”:
... But the grown man shudders and is silent. The man who has wandered pathless at night in the mountain-range of his feelings: is silent. As the old sailor is silent, and the terrors that he has endured play inside him as though in quivering cages. (Rainer Maria Rilke)
Oh yes! I have a silly little website up now for my art! For my upcoming exhibition at the David Lloyd Gallery in November, I needed to have something more than an online blog presence, so I created my site Fritz Jooste Fine Art just to showcase some paintings. It still needs some work to make it more professional, but it is there at least.
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